Holding On To Letting Go

Trying so hard to find the one,
Giving all I have without a doubt,
Just when the hardest part is done,
I start searching for my way out.

The smiles come with every day,
The memories filling up my mind,
Passion never seems to go away,
This is what I've wanted to find.

I look into your eyes and I see,
Gentleness humility grace and fear,
We seem like we are meant to be,
Laying down at night I shed a tear.

I am not disappointed or even sad,
I'm fearful cautious and happy in one,
Hoping my heart has not been had,
Praying my search for love is done.

The past flashes quickly through my head,
I relive the pain of my heart breaking,
Laying alone and cold in my bed,
This risk of love I won't be taking.

See there's a lesson I've learned so well,
To always hold on until you know,
Those three words you're aching to tell,
Instead I'm holding on to letting go.

Trust And Fly On The Wings Of Love

Betrayed and hurt without a cause,
Love thrown aside without a care,
I'm left me alone and feeling lost,
I turn my head and you're not there.

I now stand tall without your help,
Independent and strong I have grown,
Living my life all by myself,
Purpose in life I have been shown.

If I never find someone that's alright,
If life alone I have been doomed,
Not a thing in life is out of sight,
But this is something just assumed.

You came along no warning or sign,
I always smile can't sleep at night,
Much finer than the finest wine,
Being with you feels so right.

Can I see passed what's been done,
Can I let go of all this pain,
Are you really that special one,
Causing me hurt will you refrain.

So many questions and no answer,
Only a sign sent from above,
So this we'll do and only together,
Trust and fly on the wings of love.

Love's So Close Yet So Far

When I think about you,
I feel alive I feel so free,
I don't know what to do,
You and I will never be.

Your heart beats to another tune,
Your mind is in a different place,
To be with you would be my doom,
Your love for him you can't erase.

Loving him freely with all your heart,
While I stand here alone every day,
Although he clearly wants no part,
You're letting this one slip away.

You say I've lived too much already,
That I've been around all the blocks,
Yet I'm still coming slow and steady,
Because my ship's not left the docks.

In you I see that God does live,
The innocence of love still so pure,
You have God's perfect love to give,
It's you I want of that I'm sure.

One day perhaps you will see,
For me you'll wish upon a star,
That you and I could always be,
For now love's so close yet so far.

Secret Love Unforgotten

Life's brought me to a happy place,
I know it's what God has planned,
At times life's steps I retrace,
Because your memory is not banned.

I see your face in the empty air,
I hear your voice in the silence,
Even though you are not there,
I still feel your ghostly presence.

Here to haunt me you have come,
Or from my heart you never parted,
Though our time has long been done,
Feels like our love has just started.

The dreams wake the deepest sleep,
Fantasies consume my every thought,
Our memories I will always keep,
Love like this cannot be bought.

I do not know where your life led,
Or where you are upon this earth,
But when you left my heart bled,
Starting life over like at birth.

I call everyone by your first name,
And I can still feel your touch,
New love can never be the same,
Because I love you very much.

With Tears Come A Smile

The tears well up in my eyes,
My heart aches from the loss,
I ask myself a hundred whys,
How much does love really cost.

I walked away from what I knew,
The bitterness hatred fear and pain,
What more was I supposed to do,
Love and attention I could not gain.

I know my life will now get better,
I'm stronger and wiser from this test,
Harder times I now can weather,
The love I'll have will be the best.

Someone to hold through all the night,
That won't let go or turn their back,
Everything we'll have will feel so right,
Perfection and love we will not lack.

One day I'll look back and finally say,
I hurt that time and thought the worst,
I never thought that I'd see today,
Because I thought my life was cursed.

But here I'm holding her so tight,
Hand in hand walked many a mile,
And now everything feels just right,
Because with tears come a smile.

Love Is Always Worth It All

My heart flutters at your touch,
Chills just roll down my back,
It does not really take that much,
That magic touch you do not lack.

I smile when I hear your voice,
I feel my heart skip a beat,
I feel I cannot make the choice,
Though you swept me off my feet.

I feel my heart run from the fear,
I dream each night I fall asleep,
I hope to lose the same nightmare,
That my failed love makes me keep.

I front that I control my heart,
That I can choose who I will love,
But I know I play no part,
Love is chosen from above.

I never know who is the one,
Until I feel that things are right,
My search is over I am done,
Love's been brought into the light.

I hold you and it feels so right,
When we kiss you're all I see,
To keep you here I would fight,
If it's up to me we'll always be.

It may not last my whole life,
I may get hurt when I fall,
You may never be my wife,
But love I'll always give my all.

I might find you're not the one,
We may give up and walk away,
But when it's all said and done,
You helped me through another day.

Perfect Love Lost Forever

At times I look back on my life,
And wonder why God would let me hurt,
Bringing times that brought such strife,
But closer to Him I see it's worth.

I always adored and showed compassion,
Wiped her tears and held her tight,
Loved her in every form and fashion,
That perfect love she didn't hold tight.

Tossed away love she'd never known,
Pushed away her lover one strong man,
Because far apart they'd quickly grown,
She did not like God's perfect plan.

Now at night she lays her head,
She cannot feel the spark of love,
She lays alone in her cold bed,
Because she doesn't look above.

Now at night when I lay my head,
I lift my heart up to my God,
I feel strong Bible by my bed,
He is my comfort strength and rod.

Pain at first but now I'm healed,
Tears at first but now a smile,
A happy life has been revealed,
With God right here every mile!